This is for the moment you’re alone with emotion, So fucking cold they leave you mentally frozen, Cold and alone, Heart open and broken, When that love’s outta sight and it hurts in the focus, When you’re floating in oceans of hopeless, And soakin’ in misery, this is for you. This is for the moments you feel like they just don’t understand, They ain’t what I am, they ain’t where I stand, They stare from the outside and judgin’ my in, They can’t relate to this pain, They don’t feel what I feel, this is for you. This is for the moments when your weakness is your cloak, And the people you love most just beat you to a pulp, And they tell you that you’re nothing but disgusting and unworthy, Of the love that you need, Of the heart that you seek, Of the blood that you bleed, When you slice open your wrists lookin’ for love and it spits, But find nothing but self hate exists, But all that they’ve spoken, this is for you. When the bullies kick you and beat you, hurt you and leave you, Laying on the ground like you’re trash, Like you’re only half, But they’re equal, When they gladly defeat you, Then laugh in your face, When you feel all alone, you’re so out of place, This is for you. When your parents are too busy just to sit and fucking listen, Cause they’ve got other problems, So it’s either you’re over it, Or therapist’s visits, When you’re begging and pleading, That they see that you’re hurting, That they don’t disregard you, That they know that you’re fragile and don’t purposely harm you, That when they look at you like you’re the worst thing that’s ever happened in their lives, Like you’re the biggest mistake in their mind, That they don’t have to say shit, cause it shows in their eyes, And you want them to know that it hurts you sometimes, This is for you. When the girl that you love won’t even look in your direction, When the guy that you like adds you to his pussy collection, When you take your pride, And throw it away for a night that means nothing, Just to mean something, To someone who will never see you, This is for you. When you’re all dressed in black, And they whisper and snicker, When they make you feel like you’re wrong for being so different, When you try to reform and they judge you regardless, When you can’t understand why this world is so heartless, This is for you. This is for every-fucking-body that knows what it’s like to feel like you ain’t shit, But a memory that’ll never be relived, That did some fucking shit that everyone forgets, The words on the tip of tongues, that get swallowed with the spit, When you feel so invisible that you’re not even sure you exist, So you cut yourself open just to see if you’re real, You numb yourself with drugs just to hide what you feel, You drink to wash the pain in hopes of rejecting it afterwards, You live everyday wishing you could rewind your life backwards, Because you wanna figure out where the fuck you went wrong, Cause shit in your world ain’t been right for so long, I know how it feels, I’ve been there before, I’ve had my head in my hands and my heart on the floor, I’ve been worthless and shot at, I’ve been nothing to people, I know what it’s like to have the force to live, see you. I know how it feels to swallow some pills and hope that you die, Or hope that you’re killed, I know what it is to write the letter that will change everyone’s life, Cause I knew in my mind that if they didn’t care now they would when I was gone, And every-fucking-body would feel what I felt in my bones, They’d feel the earth shake and rattle from the ground underneath, They’d view me with grief, They’d give me the peace they could’ve given to me when I was right in their face, It’ll take some waking them up but I’ll do whatever it takes, They just need to see that I’m something, I’m some-fucking-body, I’m a heart, I’m a mind, I’m a soul, I’m a body, I’m not disposable garbage, I’m not disgusting and wrong, But maybe they’ll see that when I’m finally gone, 

But see, I learned the mistake, That I made was allowing other people to change the way that I saw myself, Now I see myself, I see me so fucking clearly I could cry every time I look myself in the eyes, Cause I know what you’re going through, I know where you are, I’ve traveled that road, I’ve just taken it further so, this is for you. If you’re thinking it now, If you’re wanting to die, If you’re thinking it out, You’re so much more than you are in this moment, Please don’t give up, Please stay strong cause there’s always a rainbow after every storm, Don’t do what they’re expecting of you, Don’t let go, don’t give up on you, You’ll never know how great you can be. Don’t give up on you, I didn’t give up on me. 

I did not give up on me.